27 February 2008
eagles
the reason i chose the eagle as the picture to go along with my paragraph about my apartment is that it is so distinct. it's coloring is so perfect. it's one bird you can really spot really easily.it's wing span and the way it glides through the air is something to see. there is quite a large population of eagles in b.c. i think more or less they are a north american bird. i don't know if they are an endangered species but i think they are protected. i think the eagle feeds on small rodents. i haven't seen too many eagles in the wild. a lot of companies use the eagle as part of their logo. i don't know for sure but i think native people view the eagle as part of their spiritual beliefs. another reason i chose the eagle as part of my paragraph is that it looks so strong. i think the eagle is a sign of independence.
26 February 2008
sick
25 February 2008
THIS IS ME....HELLO
I never lie about my age I am courageous and fearless not out of stupidity but from fear itself.I have aged well...I have collected all I need to move onto the next challenge in life. My body has had the experience of life ...it has given life and in turn I have gave it many battles to concure Now I am alone and I have no one to show me the way. It is only me left to follow the shadow of trueth. I can only move forward as time ticks on...and see what comes next....
because, garanteed, there is something coming next, you can count on that!
23 February 2008
HI, I am Teresa.
16 February 2008
The Blurrrrrs
State between worlds
Setting Time as in time line in life
State of beinging.
Searching for that feeling of beinging.
Shadow Bear comes forth in disguise ...feeling a huge lose (innocence ) could be anything a lost finger, a lost pencil,,,etc.
Shadow Bear is there....you see blurrss...it begins with.....blurrs here....the violent part all hell breaks out you hear screems, you see people hitting others (blurrs) you see and hear screems (Blurrs) and tears,,, you see teeth being punched out of of someones face. You see blood all over and you know it is not your blood...but you really don't know?....(Blurrss) maybe you hit someone?.... all you know, is it is not over.,...(Blurrrrs) even when the silence comes you know it is not over. You go numb like a switch just turned you off....(blurrs) and another person immerges from you and performs the next phase you need to get through what comes next...(blurrrrrs). You want to turn off (The Blurrs) and go to sleep and wake up and it will all be a bad dream...but that is not the way it goes.The Blurrrs are reality.
It all seems sooo real....or like a dream....I wish I could sleep.
out.
14 February 2008
Welcome
12 February 2008
Lockdown
Stoic: unemotional, phlegmatic, insensititivity, impassive calmn ess unanxiety.
It starts with the blurrrs. like waking up in a place you have never been. With people you don't know. Then...
Inert: listless, slowness, paralyzed, motionless.
Violation:....of innocents, here is an extreem feeling of hurt, betrayal....deceit,...etc
Once waking up (in the dark) in some wooded area naked. Believe me...please believe me ...I don't lie about this stuff!!.....like(playing wolf)
This is where Shadow Bear becomes present with it's heroism in tact.
Where the violence once was is now tranquil,...all is well.
What really happened is now covered or set ready for future use. now is still calm....not really knowing what to do next.
I suppose it is the survival thing within us that triggers the Shadow Bear. Whenever it happens there seems to be an inert feeling.
When one feels all is well ....it is not really...because all else inside (Sedation - defient, disobedient, unrest) tell a different story...the truism of how to deal with or walk in this life knowing what happened, had actually happened. Thank GOD for Shadow Bear.
Stay aware of what comes next not even Shadow Bear can tell you what to do....it is like a suspense story.....it doesn't seem real ...but it is.
09 February 2008
Creation
Songs into Elvish (Tolkien Elvish)
May it be star-opening; twilight
Sila ndu tenn’lye
Shines down from high on thou
Nai huine lantar
May it be darkness falls
Lyeorëuva vanya
Thou heart will (be) fair
Lye ran ereb tier
Thou wander lonely roads
A! Lye haello mar
O! Thou far from home
Mornie utúlië
Darkness has come
Estel a utuvelyuva lye pata
Hope and find thou will thou way
Mornie alantië
Darkness has fallen
Onaraquetta quinelyesse
Noble word to live thou in
Nai I athi oma
May it be the shadows voice
Fananduva kel
Cloud down from high will flow away
Nai lye pel menepatatier / vanpata menetier
May it be thou go around thousand way roads / to pass way thousand roads
Galadior
Light the day
Dú utulie’n
Night has come
Nailye ortanë hirianor
May it be thou lifted up to find the sun
Mornie utúlië
Darkness has come
Estel a utuvelyuva lye pata
Hope and find thou will thou way
Mornie alantië
Darkness has fallen
Onaraquetta quinelyesse
Noble word to live thou in
Onaraquetta quinelyesse
Noble word to live thou in
Gollum's Song
Si ar galad
Now without light
Si Mornië lantar
Now darkness falls
Si ar mel
Now without love
Mel na úsi
Love is not here
Úped namarië
Not say farewell
Úped úim estel
Not say not I hope
Hin dim ulma metnal
These sad rain we cry
Na lantaith ulma
Is falling rain
An ilúve caitlye pednin
For the all lies say for me
I nwalme! I úlaitmän!
The torment! The not praise good!
Metuva dénië ner
We will lament to be alone
Nelmet vanwa
We be lost
Met núdolmar
We may not head home
In the end
Nuvan nuvan
I will be (what) I will be
Ú män mellon
No good friend
Nant oi nevnin
Was ever hither for me
Si met pednamarië
Now we say farewell
Pedmet úlye estel
We say not thou hope
Hin dim ulma lyenal
These sad rain thou cry
Teltúl
To be last come
N ú-chebin I caita
May not kept the lies
I nwalme! I úlaitmän!
The torment! The not praise good!
Ar uvalye dénië
And thou will lament
Velye túli met er
As thou to come the end alone
Nalye vanwa
Thou is lost
Lye núdolmar
Thou may not head home
Nalye vanwa
Thou is lost
Lye núdolmar
Thou may not head home
--O Canada
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Anwa voronwë mel ilyesselma yondo kaan
True steadfast(loyal) love in all our sons command.
O silde orë kena’lme le ora
With gleaming hearts we see thee rise,
I anwa forte tulkar mirima!
The True North strong and free!
E palana Canada,
From far and wide, O Canada,
‘lme varya le
We protect thee.
Ilúvatar cheblma bara alcarin ar fainu!
God keep our land glorious and free!
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O Canada, We protect thee.
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O Canada, We protect thee.
Shadow Bear
Bear: Animal, endure, tolerate, bring forth, produce, yeild, birth, deliver, transfer
Shadow Bear- This is a spectactulare"thing"because this shadow bear can shape shift to any people place or thing. Shadow bear can explain, descibe, or rationlaize the pain within. Shadow bear will tell you how it was created."ALL" things (people places and things)the cast is (IT) It being the Shadow bear.
Shadow bear tells the story of "its" life. I say "it" because "it" follows me everywhere I go.
The shadow bear has many shapes..."it" accepts all. relatives friends etc...."It" gathers all pain horrific events and turns them into things we can tolerate until a later date....when we least expect it ...we are thrown into an abise of hatred and termoil.
The darkness it gathers through its life grows darker and darker as it ages.
Most of which can be easily triggered it's darkness by sound, light, smell and can cause you to do crazy things...things you wouldn't normally do.
About you, start with self. Set your tree. (family tree). time line. start a draft.
Out.
07 February 2008
my apartment
i thought about what to do about getting my apartment to look nicer. first i would need some new appliances and furniture. i would need to save some money. it would be hard as i only work part time. i started to save money.soon i had enough for a home entertainment system.it was great.i could listen to music, watch vcr or dvds. then i decided to get a new t.v. . so i saved up more money.i finally got enough money to buy the t.v. i wanted. so i got the t.v.
'during buying all of these articles my sister helped me. she drove me around ,helped me pick out things and took me for lunch. i really was thankful for all her help. now that i started sprucing up my apartment i needed some new furniture. i needed a reclining chair and a new futon mattress. it would take a large amount of money. so i saved for awhile and finally had enough money.so i called my sister and she helped me once again.i got a recliner chair and futon mattress. it really looked good in my apartment. now with the help of sistor and my job i have a nice place to come home to.
05 February 2008
I searched for you?.
I need to find out a few things about you!
I need to find you soon or I will fade off to oblivia....please tell me where you are??...at least go towards the light so I can be a part of you..... for I am nothing without you......